Whatever you do
don’t feel sorry
things roll like flashing dice, casting fates
they do not require apology
she is the one on social media
who has no family
no one with the same last name
an orphan of surname
she pretends joining, thou her joins are frayed
there is a lock where her expectations meet
the silt and sloth of each long day
her heart spends most of its time
caring for others the way she wished
she were cared for
giving into a void, it can feel at times
like pouring water into sand and scooping it up
thirsty and forbidden to drink
her goal, to rectify through action
the irreducible inequity
we all suffer under
sometimes without blow
other times seemingly, beseiged
the wax and the wane
she used to believe love was the cure
for every malaise or grief of soul
but with time, even that slouched away
a disappointment within a broken egg shell
we choose scars we recognize
and sometimes they scald us
with their knowing …
one day when she dies
she will not be celebrated or recalled
never wanted commemoration but to
matter when she lived, no after life necessary
her ashes scattered by nobody in particular
to the wilds of the wind
where she will at last be free
to climb to climb to climb
This resonates– more than you can know.
Might be why we’re friends 💜
So beautiful!
I cannot help but think of this, here credited to William Blake, but oft repeated and rephrased to the same effect:
“He who would do good to another must do it in Minute Particulars: general Good is the plea of the scoundrel, hypocrite, and flatterer, for Art and Science cannot exist but in minutely organized Particulars.”
Expecting no posthumous reward or punishment, what is there to do but our personal and fallible best to kindly care, even love with no expectation or demand of return, and mind the little things that add to more smiles and less tears. And so, go ahead and flap our butterfly wings so small, whether or not we ever know of the tornado half a world away it may create as some say can be.
I love the unchained flow of those last four lines 🗽
A carer sadly unrewarded
Very powerful, Candy!
Oh I’m so glad to see you here and thank you very much for saying so – that means a great deal to me xo
You are very welcome 🙂
Since being booted from WP and having to do it via this odd method, I have seen readership drop off precipitously because it’s just another hoop to jump through, so I really, really appreciate it when you read and respond to a post – thank you so much
It is my pleasure truly, having known your beautiful work for so long. My presence here has been fluctuating, I will look out for your posts with more attention from here on 🙂
You are such a light in this world I am glad you are back and hope you will stay xo
🙏🏼💛