Nuptial rites at midnight
espousal gently prodded for life
sleep walkers into union they
wake to find promises in dark fulfilled
she wore her matrimony patiently
believing any escape better than remaining still
but time plays tricks like a young child
what we thought then, changing like old glass
will gather yellow reflection within its make
until thrown out for being discolored
or broken half deliberately, the mind thinking it no great loss
is this the fate of age? Bequeath a lessening
value over years, ruin slipping her knot
through stooped shoulder blades with expertise
of well worn harbinger ?
What appeared so intoxicating at 19
shows itself, pickled and cloudy, parody of spectacle
aghast at her own self, the indulgence of emotion
losing reason for the oily climb of bodies urging
their mischief upon the other with that slick beat of youth
no surely not, people cannot
be this blind, not her, who has always
prized insight, could she have become
the Borderline’s Bride?
Her lover, in absentia is fickle, for her
butchery is not written down or photographed
but presented in myriad glass cases for dissecting
so slowly, almost lost to time, the gradual
rise and fall of things, until one or the other
is sullen ash
then she knows, really knows, in that
concrete unyielding way tragedy presents
its litany of excuses for why you mistook
the garland of betrayal and tenderizing
your own mouth, placed the fish hook
deep where wedged against sense it pulled
hanging your best intentions by their easy mockery
for years cannot be recovered
mistakes undone, still not repaired
they lie like unsent letters
beneath the pillows of
those unmoving in wedlock
a fox somewhere screams
redolent and full
a sudden horror piercing night
startling the most stalwort
to sit up in
terror
A very harsh awakening
There are intoxicating places we have been and celebrated to which we would now have to be dragged screaming protest.
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