Today I gave away my past
wrapped it in leaves and sunk it at the foot of the garden
where floating for a moment, it submerged into water moribund
the edges curling with brief surprise
water is like flame in that way
licking bright until emptied dark.
Today I drove to your house
where the willows weep and people with ashen faces
you were sleeping in your bedroom, a child in your eyes
the cry you bequeathed me
turning on the record player to smother it
with the slick precision of nothing left to lose
creating sound out of butter-fingered illusion.
Today I didn’t let you say no
we packed and left dust and unopened boxes behind
illness makes you so aware of time
its ephemeral shifting like
monsters beneath sand
your hair blowing in the humid air
Today we lay beneath a fan
oscilating like a tired cat catching her tail
the shape of you a fixture in my mind
your smell threaded through me
tapestry in touch
I reach again and again
weary of a life time of holding on.
Today is the salve
tomorrow the reckoning
we burn edges to watch what will happen
heedless of the portent
like little children hungry for fun
our eye on the clock of our life
rather burn than become
the stalagmite in cave
where nothing moves.
Today I see you in motion
running toward me like a girl
there may be every reason not to
yet we live on
yet we live on
the edge of the narrow road
turning corners until we no longer
see our shadows behind us
just the reach of our hands
growing hot against the other.
6 Replies to “tableau vivant”
When we are not dead yet, then it is time to be actually alive.
Oh my. I feel every word of this. So vibrant.
Beautifully poignant. The cat/fan image is marvellous.
This is one of those poems that makes me aware of my breathing – I hold it constantly, when I’m not releasing it in a Ha of amazement. That cat tail… is a master stroke.
Thinking you like something I have written is just about the best feeling in the world considering your work is among my enduring favorite and I aspire to be more like you in my ability with words
I submit that we have a mutual aspirational society 😁
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