The sharp toothed longing to extinguish sound
Forgo outside world; remain, remain, breathing recycled air
Behind false walls; did no one ever tell you? There is no safety
Hidden pipes run beneath thin plaster, feeding whispers
Those who lay in this room, fingered the same stairwell
Sat listless at a table much the same, positioned to catch light
As thirsting butterfly net draws solace in the motion, arcing sun
Scooping life in threadbare hands, just to watch it pour out
This ceiling has witnessed birth and death and women walking into walls
The bruise; a special damson, not found in nature, such the unnaturalness
Of the act, faster than capture, a raised fist, the anvil of time, separation
Only a word; you can hear her murmur, in-between the brick
Soft like building a nest, even roosting pigeons make greater din
Her opacity, the cavern of her dust drenched eyes, how rapid her pulse
Threading through the houses arteries, Mistress, memory, ghost
There are no phantoms here, only movement, slights of hand
Photographs soak up lost moisture, wisteria ravages pealing paint
Devouring the leach of years in riotous magenta, as if fingers drenched
In color, spilling their music, chorused against dusky ivy, faint of heart
Home to spiders; if you watch you will see; the uncoiling of lifetimes
Opening their arabesque against the unfurling of a lazy haunting
Her footprints, the acidity of her breathing, still cloying against parquet
She is your memory; climbing the great stairwell, pausing next to
Dust drenched photo. Even time forgets, even sombulance distorts
The actual recollection, urging on black ocean, in Conrad’s dark bewitched heart
As still as glass, laid flat, beneath thick velvet in sightless hour.
This, like its subject, is bewitching.
A neat nod to Conrad
“Unfurling of a lazy haunting” is the most self-encapsulating line for this poem. That paradoxical humidity and color you capture in the photograph is speaking directly to my spring lovesickness. I just want to keep wandering through it, like a ghost in wisteria and damson myself. 💜