She said to me, this is why
you start the ignition and drive
never far enough
the feeling of mud stuck in your wheels
when you find you’ve been stopped
a god-awfully long time at crossroads
watching emptiness
hypnotized by blink in and out of hooded light
amber in raptured darkness
a welcome, a warning, a half-moon or pecked ball of cheese
the days you used to eat diary and wear
push-up bras and frilly skirts with Wellington’s
climb the clouds
invest in heavy coats and lace up boots, the end of the world is nigh
where did your combat go?
as you sat watching life blink and slow
what year, what day? what hour ceased your climb?
did you know? Or was it something stealthy and unobserved?
crawling up your corseted will and into your slack mouth
waiting to be re-charged
finding power in the notion
nobody’s listening
other cars go past
some race, some idle, there are sunday drivers and seekers
church goers, drive-in’s, back-seaters
there are race-cars and old vintage trucks with their bellies full of stories
home paint jobs and clean-cut straight from the shop
the latter go to the Wash Tub nearly every week to ensure
their interiors are spotless
and you? Are your insides up to par? inspection? White glove test?
how much dust and debris have you collected and stored beneath your wings?
now coiled in retreat like parts of an engine without spark
do your chairs sag from too much sitting?
has your key grown rust and your feet lost their motion?
as you lull yourself with colors against soaping dark
go, consider, stop, go, consider, stop, go, consider, stop
you idled
engine running a purr into long painted lines
thin women without succor holding their empty bellies up against moonlight
did you consider?
this is your only time
no more is left after the bowl is licked and scraped and washed
set to dry and be re-used by someone with more gumption
in their sunday shoes
when did you remove the will, the effort, the urge
replacing it as you would a hub cap with something less polished
so you would not be noticed, fall in with leaves collected in plastic bags
collected at curb side
would you recognize
your own self ten years ago?
arms filled with bangles of silver
hair braided to kink and denote
fire in your belly, longing in your chest
here is the shimmer of the undimmed
climbing trees in their favorite
church dress getting branches in their hair
you and I ate cherries and plums
the sweet from the marrow of Jamaican sugar cane
baked by a fitful city left to burgeon
music from a dozen sources, the resin and hum
you hennaed my fingers and I shared my belief
this moment could be stretched to eternity
lying with my head in your patchouli lap
feeling the move and sway of need in us both
to uncover the secret
to living
then you were gone
I mended myself imperfectly
with mincemeat and old Christmas crackers
that had not struck their gun powder
nor cracked in explosive alchemy of two people pulling from either end
a wish bone sucked clean
what do you wish for?
I wished for a map
draw my direction in red
like the tongue of your hair caught under spotlight
I learned to drive
you learned to walk
with each determining we split, like dried corn will
after being soaked and then left to burn
lights blink
lost and found
a mitten on tarmac
a bag of garbage
one lens from a pair of glasses
adverb and pronoun
we each saw correction differently
you still dance
when the brass band strikes a tune
you merge into the crowd
lifting your arms above your head
my silver still slipping on your wrists
your disapproval branding
the center of my forehead
“you sold out” you mouth
“losing your way deliberately”
“you thought by cutting the string, tying it to a tree in a wood, you’d forget where you came from”
“all you did was create another way to suffer all your own”
you were once part of a tribe
daubed in blue and saffron women of islands and sea skirmish
fearing nothing but rocks, jagged and monstrous
and even as we hesitated
we urged ourselves forward
now you sit
idling in a warm car on a tepid night with windows down
listening to a station play unfamiliar discordant tunes
and the headlights of other cars
passing you by on the outside lane
are the faces of those you gave away
when you emigrated in reduction
like the sauce of ourselves
left too long on the high flame
will burn and stick
unable to be
poured
It’s always never easy, when you feel that you’re stuck, at a crossroad in your life, not knwoing which way to go next, and, this will be hard to do, but sometimes, you just need to wait for a short while, to let everything catch up and just, take everything in, and have faith, that your life knows where it’s leading you…
Well said – very well said. Thank you so much for reading this and your lovely reply xo
This uses such a superb metaphor that I had, at times, to remind myself that I wasn’t reading about motoring.
Thank you so much! I laughed so much when I read this! ha ha ha! You crack me up! (in a very good way)
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” I mended myself imperfectly “, yes I did. With good intentions and the best I could do. Thank you for sharing your gifts with us
Thank you so much!
“We urged ourselves forward” <3
π thank you so much lovely girl xo
Aww it’s my pleasure. π
This was a compelling story all the way through, full of metaphor within metaphor. You are truly a magician.
There you are! So good to see you here again. I hope you are doing okay. Thank you so much for your lovely words L. xxx
What an amazing use of allegory, Dearest Lady. Breathtaking arrangement of words that captures my heart so sweetly. Adore your work here, Shieldmaiden. <3
It was a long ass one wasn’t it? π
Oh it was, I guess…but I love that! π
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Wow, this is such an evocative, visual orgasmic piece. Love the imagery. Love the car analogy. So much to love. Mic drop. π£π
Thank you so much lovely girl – I smiled at the mic drop ! π (hugs)
It should be read out loud x
Wow, Candice … just Wow.
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Candice, no words. Wow
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So strange to read those words from a stranger… Were you there? How deeply the echoes of your poetry resonate in my hollow heart. Thank you again
Dearest kelleyβ‘β‘β‘
I burnt the pea soup the other night. Yuk! Your last night reminded me of that. Just thought I’d mention it, as it seems important. What a waste π
Oooops – typo = your last lines…
Painfully beautiful. Poetryβs muse your work is very relatable and touching
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Captivating your words are relatable and touching
All the other commenters conveyed my thoughts about this piece better than I could…the only other thing I can say…. Love this!!!
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Loved the imagery and metaphors so vividly expressed I love your work
Thank you so very much!!β‘β‘β‘
As usual, a tour de force. I would love to see you break it into sections where thoughts shift the most, I think it’d make it a bit easier to read β however that’s just housekeeping. It doesn’t ‘need’ that, I’m just a lazy reader.
The themes searching for self and the driving metaphors work really well. You’re a pro. This is why you get to be at the big-poet’s table.
You a lazy reader?? HAHAHAHA! ! As if!
I’m super-lazy. You know that.
Bollocks!
You’re so posh with your retorts. π
Bleedin classy, that’s me! π
Someone’s gotta bleed for the damned art.
you make me smile!
I feel like I went on a long journey with you–like a long allegorical journey, circles of hell and all that. π
I hope it wasn’t too torturous and very much appreciate you reading. I know it was long and you are a valued encouragement β‘
No, it wasn’t torturous. It felt epic in a good way.
The analogy of the car is superb!
I’m so glad you think so! I tried!