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I’m so cold
my fingers are chaffed to crepe
and I think of you
curling my bunions and split ends into smiles
you who thought my high forehead, regal and grand
you who turned my flaws into delights
misting unflattering mirrors to better light
I think of you and how
I felt when you regarded me
with the bright eyes of love
that dimmed and winked out
gradually until even the blind could see
you no longer held me in your esteem
that’s when I told myself
don’t depend upon the love of others
to hold you to the light
do not need the touch of someone who desires you
to be all right
but who am I kidding?
even the flower
the feral cat and mocking bird
the sky, the earth and all between
even the damn puddles and muddy stream
needs someone to say to them
you look lovely still
you make my heart skip a beat
even if it is a bush or bramble hedge
maybe out there in the wild there are
lovers for everything
whilst I
try to find in not being loved
the companionship of silence
but it is not
no it is not
good enough
for quiet endurance does not have
your caring arms
holding me from the world
turning me from lead to precious metal
nor the ardor of your eyes
reminding me to shine
when I think I cannot
no
that hope is lost
the day you turned your head
no longer delighted by my flaws
I am just ordinary now
and a bunion is a bunion
sticking out of my shoe
at rude angle
as sorry as any malformed bone could be
to lose such fantasy

0 Replies to “Lovers for everything”

  1. Even if you love yourself above and beyond, the need of hearing and feeling someone other than yourself love and accept you for all that you are is still great. But it’s best to remember that everyone see’s you differently and falls in love with different aspects of you that makes you unique even when you feel so ordinary. I love this.

    1. That is so true. I agree and that’s very insightful, you’re right, people like different parts of you there is no one universal like, I actually had never thought of it quite like that thank you for that, I may write more on that subject thanks to you!

    1. My friend it is so good to see you again – happy new year to you I hope you are okay I thought of you often whilst you were gone (and I also some of the time) lovely to see your face again here and on FB. BIG HUG and thank you for reading me xo

      1. A happy new year to you too Candice, it’s so good to be back and thank you for the hug. Sadly, my Father passed away at the end of November but my Mum is now doing well. Brian is still having treatment but it all looks very promising. 2016 was a tough year, but so far 2017 has kicked off to a good start, fingers crossed that it carries on that way xx

  2. These lines blew me away:
    your caring arms
    holding me from the world
    turning me from lead to precious metal
    nor the ardor of your eyes
    reminding me to shine
    Love yourself as everything to keep us healthy and good.
    Beautifully expressed. πŸ™‚

  3. You brought that image to life, wow. Candice what can I say. A “marvelous” wouldn’t do any justice to your work, you are beyond marvelous, your words, your emotions and the way you express them.

          1. THANK YOU!!!!
            I was so bummed when I realized I was missing so many of your posts! Because of this stupid app. It is so easy to use on my ipad but i realized I missed over 1/2 of your posts. I really enjoyed reading all of the ones I had missed.

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