but you burn high
like a moth attracted to light
except you are the light and the moth
Wings, iridescence, shadow, sinew, flicker
you flinch, reveal, expose, and you attract
these dark marbled feelings inside of me
I have nowhere to lay them
no taut chain tongue with which to speak
their eternal gravity, moonfall
I keep them in check only
with the pressed thumb of the stalwort
who choke on their reduced emotions
like Kings devour poison
and create rose gardens from their disintegration
dig, reveal, sharpen, reinterpret, clouds swell
if I were anyone else
I’d grab you by the waist and not ask
grant nothing, leave behind, water stain on metal
yes it would go against all your rules, the ones I know too well
funny learning from others, the depths of you
and yet, like crinkled unfolding stars when they
smash together — become starlight
I think I’d take the chance
you’re worth it … the taste of your mouth licorice, brandy, woman
you’re not one of those who you can forget about
I stay awake tracing the high desert shape of your face
how your clavicles meet like winnowed apologies
and your legs hide muscle and power beneath skin
in the same way I have learned to dissolve
my feelings
those ones too sorrowful soaked in regret, for any audience
and those too intense for any revealing
your flesh, the trace of, pulse urging beneath
some things are better buried inert, dreaming, sinaitic
they’re too much for this world
when I look in the mirror and see
a tired-eyed girl with premature sorrow
there’s nothing there worthy of you
you — who shines like water in darkness
flint, erect, heat steaming in chill, arcadia trees
inviting, despite your closed eucalyptus eyes
it’s just a fantasy anyway
the thought of making you mine
of turning all your worn velvet rules inside out
until you cry raw and pull me to you
caught on love
at last
To love, to desire such a one, that is easy. It’s almost impossible not to, but to believe oneself worthy of that being returned in kind, able to stand in a light so bright, swim in a tide so strong, that is hard, that challenges.
Wow!
Splendid imagery at its best
<3 "you’re not one of those who you can forget about" Neither are you! 🙂
Good lord this is beautiful. Dark, silky heart-pounding beauty.
I think you are describing yourself 😉 (LOVE)