hemofgarmentThey said
she’s a sinner
that red Mary
she’s got shadows in her soul
everyone’s done a wrong
what’s yours?
she couldn’t recall a sin she committed
though many done against her still
showed in bad light shining as scars will
what constitutes a sin?
not picking up a fallen book or
neglecting the heart of an aching soul?
not burying a bird nor preventing its death
sailing into glass as you ate your day
she’d let
the dinner burn accidentally making snow flakes for the windows
she’d been too tired
to scrub the tile in the bathroom before the guests arrived
she’d given herself the bigger helping on occasion
but more often than not she made room for the needs of others
cramped with heads on her lap driving in the car
give an inch take a mile convert to metric lose measure
what comes first? you?
she knew she hurt herself when eclipsing
and if that was a sin
she was a sinner plenty
scratching charred lines of dislike across herself
like a map plotting direction with blooming red pins
but lord if that is a sin
to turn and bear our fangs within
when the world is full of clamoring snake oil salesmen
hawking their false wares
building temples for closed gods
telling children who are raped
no you cannot abort this is gods wish
then she was a sinner of the very worst sort
for her belief was
those who are without blemish don’t exist
but some of us are good
not living under the almshouse for the spiritually impoverished
she didn’t know what it meant to
live in sin be born to sin
she felt sin was a choice
you made or did not make
and she did not choose
to sin except
by laying in bed reading
on Sunday listening to
the vowels of the faithful
herding their flock

0 Replies to “Red Mary”

  1. This is so good. An excellent concept to be writing on. I remember a quote I saw on Facebook “Sinners judging sinners for sinning differently”

    1. Elsa, EXACTLY RIGHT! I totally agree. I suppose I don’t subscribe to the idea we are all sinners, nor the idea that none of us are, I think it depends and much has to do with the ideals of our society more than our actions. Thank you for reading this!

      1. And I think there is always something about Mary Magdalene. Something pure and reverent. Its a personal and completely emotional feeling! 😜

        1. Elsa so true. I have read a lot of books on her, the one that resonated with me was the whole history of women wearing red and being called ‘mary’ and what that actually meant and how powerful they were but it was not credited (typical!)

          1. You should try to find a copy of ‘Poem of the Man-God’ by Italian mystic Maria Valtorta, controversial but the most comprehensive written account on the lives of the apostles and especially of the highly praised (by Jesus) lives of the women disciples, including the Greek slave and intellectual, Syntyche. I believe you will find much value in this work, Candice.

  2. I think there is and has been so much of this in the world–women being blamed and called sinners, and then internalizing it.
    Interesting “the vowels of the faithful” rather than the vows.

  3. Red is bright it demands to be seen. But, red holds powerful meanings. Blood shed to heal, blood shed to save. Blood shed out of intense emotion, also We are all red underneath the skin.
    Mary, I believe means bitter, bitter of what? Maybe bitter of being judgment? It also means rebellion, rebellious against what? Maybe rebellious against judgment.
    Clever you can only write about something most won’t dare go near.

  4. Your write with such force and power.
    Beautifully well said sis.
    Here’s a quote:
    There are two kinds of pride, both good and bad. ‘Good pride’ represents our dignity and self-respect. ‘Bad pride’ is the deadly sin of superiority that reeks of conceit and arrogance. ~ John C. Maxwell

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