Bed springs digging, grappling metal fingers
Gouging in iron shreak
His weight a slender man of unfastening belt buckles
More metal
My skin, when velvet is brushed the wrong direction
No longer feels smooth
Disturbed
Yellow dishes, the smell of cheap heaters chuffing their exhaust
He is covering the air in kerosene
A tang of Chinese takeout, disguarded in the corner
Where potted plants and molding curtain tips go to die
Light doesn’t get in
His eyes eat hope as day is vanquished
A shadow crawling in my DNA
If I had grown fat with his child
I’d have cut it out with my own teeth
Her shape in the darkness is a star
Piercing my gloom
Streetlights flirt with fog outside
Stray dogs without homes howl
She says; I am the future, hold on
To this place ahead
Waiting for you to catch up
It may take twenty years or one
Slothing his stink off you with each Advent
Till he’s a puppet left in the cupboard of fear
Limp and collecting dust
Give it no power
Over you
And the twilight of your journey
Lain before you like molten lava
The pulse of something surging from within the earth
He turns, metal in his false smile, as you run out the room
Cold bathrooms with mildewed flannel towels damp in sympathy
His limp face and erect impotence, shared with shadows
He cannot catch you, this kerosene man, he is all char and ash
Whilst you, you have been reminded why you want to live
Barefoot, you run, you run until you cannot feel the hard ground beneath you.